My Heart Got Lost

My Heart Got Lost~ Dave Kitchen Walking down the road of life. Filled with hate. Filled with strife.I got caught up in the fight. I thought that was in the right.I thought that I was in the light.But everything I did I did for spite. And my heart got lostI forgot the costOf becoming what you hate the most I hope that it is not too lateTo turn away the tides of fate.And to loveAnd to love I was in the middle of battle modeSo I did not feel my soul corrodeI was kicking hard against the goads I never saw the coming sparkThat suddenly blew my world apartAnd someone died and broke my heart And my heart got lostI forgot the costOf becoming what you hate the mostI hope that it is not too lateTo turn away the tides of fate.And to loveAnd to love And so I'm here hoping that you'll seeThe only way to love is selflessly And my heart got lostI forgot the costOf becoming what you hate the mostI hope that it is not too lateTo turn away the tides of fate.And to loveAnd to love I wrote this poem because for over 13 years people have been hating and doing evil things to my wife and IEven when she was sick they got worse.Then one of the harassers was coughing at home and his throat ruptured and he chocked to death on his own blood.I had hated this man and wanted revenge. And had played out so many scenarios in my mind of how I was going to do this that or the other. And what good did it do me to carry all that in my soul?Maybe I was in the right in standing up and protecting my family from racist people.But what about my insides? What about my heart?When people carry so much fear or hate in them, they begin to corrode inside.Some could say, "God punnished this man."But why would I blame God if my own hate and fear ate me up?It's very simple. We are what we constantly have in our minds.And that can effect our life's progress and health. I spoke in another place about we get what we put out into the universe.It is a spiritual law that all spiritual ways have in it.Buddhism has Karma.Christianity has 'you reap what you sow.'Wiccan has the Law of Three.Judiasm is “I will curse those who curse you and bless those who bless you.” It is so prevalent that doctors will tell you that your mind will effect your health.When I was told how the man died, I got sick and could not sleep that night.I did not rejoice in this enemy loss. I was sad that the hate consumed him.I am still sad. And they continue to harass us and be filled with hate.But I have to change for my own good.I will still protect my family and our animals.But I will do it with my love for them in mind, not my hate for others.